Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Binocular

You asked me what I was looking for, as always, I told you "I don't know." sorry about that by the way. I always don't know, I know it bugs the hell out of you. I sometimes just don't think enough for there to be an answer where I can say "I do know, Let me tell you".

Well, I have an answer, and I know it's a little to late. I know you were never really into me that much and that's okay. This probably doesn't even matter that much. It's really easy to pretend it doesn't matter, I pretend it doesn't matter, wear a smile and act like my heart isn't broken. Broken by someone who was never mine. 

My answer, is I am always looking for something; anything. You asked me what I was looking for. I am looking for a girl who will love me back a little bit... That was a joke, I want a girl who will love me like I love her, the same way the sun loves the moon. 
Undoubtedly you don't think about that stuff, I would have told you that and you would have asked me why I am bringing the moon and the sun into the conversation. I would say I don't know. 
I am looking for a girl with sunkissed lips and the wanderlust brown eyes. 
I am looking for Magic and forests and someone who is just as lost as I am.

You asked me what I was looking for, I told you I don't know.

Now I know. 

I am looking for the ocean in Utah. I am looking for 2 hands just a little smaller than mine.
Smiles with gaps and fingernails that are chipped. Callouses on our hands from the garden and a nose I can kiss.

Now you're gone, and I have answer. You asked me what I was looking for, and the answer is you.